Well, any one thing usually has at least a couple different consequences. You might want some of them but not others. Or you might just not know exactly how it will turn out - so you can want the good outcome you're hoping for, but not want the bad outcome that might also happen. Or if the good outcome is really important to you, you might just...be scared to feel sad and disappointed if it doesn't work. If you never try, you can always tell yourself it would work. But if the thing happens, then you have to know for sure.

Does it feel like any of those?