"I know I'm enough of a person to be your lover," Hakkai says softly. "I'm -- enough of a person for myself, even, most of the time. But I've never been enough of a person to stand up in front of everyone and tell the truth."
Even before he was a murderer, he was always a liar. No one would have accepted him and Kanan if they knew -- and even the lie only let them be accepted on sufferance, because even if they weren't twins, they were still orphans and strangers. After... both youkai and human were a lie, after. His very name was a lie, even if he's grown into it with time.
"I'll give you my name," he adds. "That, you won't be stealing. But I'd still feel better about it if I could fight someone."
Then maybe he'd feel as if he'd earned the right to be heard.
Re: a few days after the end of the flood
Even before he was a murderer, he was always a liar. No one would have accepted him and Kanan if they knew -- and even the lie only let them be accepted on sufferance, because even if they weren't twins, they were still orphans and strangers. After... both youkai and human were a lie, after. His very name was a lie, even if he's grown into it with time.
"I'll give you my name," he adds. "That, you won't be stealing. But I'd still feel better about it if I could fight someone."
Then maybe he'd feel as if he'd earned the right to be heard.