Mostly it's just not knowing much about Jedao and Eiffel's relationship. He knew there was one, given Eiffel's location at all the parties, but he had no idea of what it meant or how they felt about one another and they never really discussed it. Sometimes he wonders if his friends thinks he doesn't care about the rest of their lives because he's so careful with what he asks, how he tries not to delve.
That's a different problem and not the one that's really relevant now.
There was some rawness, rawness that wasn't Jedao's problem and wasn't, in some ways, his business. Rawness that he found another solution for. But John's pretty good about his emotions once there's been some action on them, once they've seen light, so it's a lot less about that.
Mostly it's the 'not knowing what's welcome' thing. So yeah, he waits.
But eventually, he will paint something small, postcard sized, something with dark stars and shifting galaxies, something that somehow carries the music of the spheres within it and he'll put it in an envelope and label it specifically for Jedao and place it next to his door. On the back of it is written: ]
I hope everything is okay. Let me know if I can help. I love you. - John Doe
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Mostly it's just not knowing much about Jedao and Eiffel's relationship. He knew there was one, given Eiffel's location at all the parties, but he had no idea of what it meant or how they felt about one another and they never really discussed it. Sometimes he wonders if his friends thinks he doesn't care about the rest of their lives because he's so careful with what he asks, how he tries not to delve.
That's a different problem and not the one that's really relevant now.
There was some rawness, rawness that wasn't Jedao's problem and wasn't, in some ways, his business. Rawness that he found another solution for. But John's pretty good about his emotions once there's been some action on them, once they've seen light, so it's a lot less about that.
Mostly it's the 'not knowing what's welcome' thing. So yeah, he waits.
But eventually, he will paint something small, postcard sized, something with dark stars and shifting galaxies, something that somehow carries the music of the spheres within it and he'll put it in an envelope and label it specifically for Jedao and place it next to his door. On the back of it is written: ]
I hope everything is okay. Let me know if I can help. I love you. - John Doe