"I was mad at him because he hurt Hakkai's feelings," Jedao says, with a little rueful huff of air. "And mine, too. I wanted a future where he was part of our home, our family - and it was okay he hadn't come around on me yet, but he would eventually, I'm charming. And I never imaged he wouldn't - he loves Hakkai too. I thought he just needed to know he was welcome, that he was wanted. We asked a little before the Narrenschiff. Only he didn't want that future. And I sort of lost my shit about it."