[Jedao feels like it more resembles sitting quietly and working on something and not looking while a shy cat gradually sidles up to sit next to you. A skill he has been working on for some time.]
I was convalescing for a little while. You couldn't have talked to me right afterwards if you'd tried.
You were feeling terrible because of an actual curse, and you were as cruel as you knew how to be. You could've blown it off, but you apologized anyway. I think that's really brave and cool of you.
[ Roman's had to apologize to people before. Especially on the barge. But there's always an edge to it, a gruffness from the other person, or some sort of schpiel. Raylan and Jedao, though? ]
Huh.
I am brave and cool. You're right. [ His ego loves it, that's for sure. ]
Oh, well, yeah, sounds like a tuesday. [ Roman shoots Jedao a look: not quite incredulous, not quite disgusted, but one he's developed solely for his friend that's a hearty mix of 'you're weird' and 'excuse me?'
Best to keep sliding down the chair as Jedao works on his arts and crafts. ]
Yeah... Uhh, no. No murder. Nothing direct, at least.
As the only warden on this corpsefucking ship who can control myself while under a rage curse, apparently, I had a duty to take down the heavy-hitters who were off the rails.
[It's a little terse, but bitter rather than defensive. He puts down the knife for a moment, and sighs.]
[ In a weird way, the tense tone is almost comforting. Roman shows no sign of it affecting him, though he does glance over at Jedao and looks at him proper. ]
Weirder fuckery. Or maybe more normal, I don't know, it wasn't like - actual psych surgery. He was just a manipulative prick and I loved him, but. He had to go.
Anyway. It's okay if you're a little fucked up about it.
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I was convalescing for a little while. You couldn't have talked to me right afterwards if you'd tried.
[He remarks mildly.]
But I'm listening now.
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[ Jedao's got the right approach. Eventually, Roman just sort of sinks into a nearby chair. ]
So uh, about the shit I said.... It wasn't very cool.
[ A wince. ]
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[ Roman, wincing, decides now's the time to throw his head dramatically back. ]
I'm trying to say I'm sorry. I guess. For trying to dig.
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If that's what you're trying to say, then you should say it.
[Just because he's proud of you doesn't mean he's letting you off the hook just half-assing this.]
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Please don't make me say it officially.
[ Jedao's going to, isn't he? ]
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You've told me what you're trying to do. How hard you actually try to accomplish it is up to you.
[You bet your ass he is.]
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I'm sorry.
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Okay. I accept your apology.
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Really?
[ That's it? ]
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You were feeling terrible because of an actual curse, and you were as cruel as you knew how to be. You could've blown it off, but you apologized anyway. I think that's really brave and cool of you.
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[ Roman's had to apologize to people before. Especially on the barge. But there's always an edge to it, a gruffness from the other person, or some sort of schpiel. Raylan and Jedao, though? ]
Huh.
I am brave and cool. You're right. [ His ego loves it, that's for sure. ]
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[Jedao agrees sagely.]
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[ A short bark of a laugh. ]
Thanks.
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[It could be a joke about the specialest boy, but it isn't; it's quietly musing, something he's thought for a while.]
You stayed safe, I hope?
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...kinda Fratricided Kendall, too. [ And, very casually: ] You?
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[Not quite casually. Coolly, evenly. Jedao has no regrets about taking care of them.]
Had you killed somebody before?
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Best to keep sliding down the chair as Jedao works on his arts and crafts. ]
Yeah... Uhh, no. No murder. Nothing direct, at least.
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[It's a little terse, but bitter rather than defensive. He puts down the knife for a moment, and sighs.]
I'm sorry.
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What are you sorry for?
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[Matter-of-factly, rather than gently.]
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Uh... Thanks, I think. I guess you speak from experience.
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Anyway. It's okay if you're a little fucked up about it.
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