Asking for help is hard for him. But I think he'd be very open to it in this situation. I told him to call Malcolm and not let Kikimora goad him, and he did that this time.
I'm considering speaking with Kikimora directly to help resolve the situation, to be honest.
He stares at the communicator for a long moment, tucking himself down against Jedao's shoulder, and then adds, long fingers flying over the keyboard:
I'm angry that Malcolm won't do his job and doesn't care. He can be worked around, but I'm still angry.
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Jedao leans his head on top of Hakkai's head, and he pauses for a little while before his own reply comes.
I think he does care, and is trying to do his job as he sees it. But that doesn't make it any less infuriating that his priorities are different and his choices have been harmful. You should be able to rely on him, and whether your fears about what he would do are true or not, the fact is that he's failed to earn your trust or allay those fears.
It sucks. I'm sorry.
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He certainly doesn't care about Sebastian. Kikimora, yes.
He's been tolerably clear about his opinions on Sebastian. He might think that none of those opinions count as ill will, but that's only because he's decided they're all objective facts.
Hakkai makes a grumbling noise deep in his throat, letting Jedao's head rest on his own, and leans into it despite his stiff-necked annoyance.
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Jedao pauses for a few moments, fingers still as he tries to phrase it right.
I think his bias is distorting his understanding of what's really happened, or could have happened. And that's difficult for anyone to break out of, unless they're willing to listen to outside voices.
And he generally isn't. That's on him.
There's more Jedao could say, but not without saying things that he feels Malcolm told him in confidence, rather than his own observations.
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I don't even know for certain that it's bias. I've asked him twice now why he thinks Kikimora wasn't deliberately provoking Sebastian last time, and explained why I think she was. Both times he told me that I was asking in bad faith, so he wouldn't tell me his reasons.
But it could be that he has better reasons.
He doubts it. If Malcolm had a good reason, Hakkai suspects he'd have given it: but maybe he genuinely assumed Hakkai's bad faith from the fact that he didn't agree without evidence.
With a sigh, he shakes his head, and types swiftly.
I don't think you and I can solve him between us.
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Hakkai nods, leaving the communicator to balance precariously on his knee as he turns to kiss Jedao, careful and sweet. He cups Jedao's cheek in his palm, every gesture I love you too.
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I'm considering speaking with Kikimora directly to help resolve the situation, to be honest.
He stares at the communicator for a long moment, tucking himself down against Jedao's shoulder, and then adds, long fingers flying over the keyboard:
I'm angry that Malcolm won't do his job and doesn't care. He can be worked around, but I'm still angry.
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I think he does care, and is trying to do his job as he sees it. But that doesn't make it any less infuriating that his priorities are different and his choices have been harmful. You should be able to rely on him, and whether your fears about what he would do are true or not, the fact is that he's failed to earn your trust or allay those fears.
It sucks. I'm sorry.
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He's been tolerably clear about his opinions on Sebastian. He might think that none of those opinions count as ill will, but that's only because he's decided they're all objective facts.
Hakkai makes a grumbling noise deep in his throat, letting Jedao's head rest on his own, and leans into it despite his stiff-necked annoyance.
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I think he cares about...resolving the situation fairly. But not about Sebastian, no. And I don't think he's competent enough to overcome his bias.
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Fair is not the same as "equal blame." I don't know if that's bias or careless thinking.
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Jedao pauses for a few moments, fingers still as he tries to phrase it right.
I think his bias is distorting his understanding of what's really happened, or could have happened. And that's difficult for anyone to break out of, unless they're willing to listen to outside voices.
And he generally isn't. That's on him.
There's more Jedao could say, but not without saying things that he feels Malcolm told him in confidence, rather than his own observations.
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But it could be that he has better reasons.
He doubts it. If Malcolm had a good reason, Hakkai suspects he'd have given it: but maybe he genuinely assumed Hakkai's bad faith from the fact that he didn't agree without evidence.
With a sigh, he shakes his head, and types swiftly.
I don't think you and I can solve him between us.
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That's a promise.
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