Gonou's breath goes out as if at a blow, and he squeezes back, burying his face in Jedao's hair beside his hand.
"I love you," he whispers. Jedao's laid the complicated weight in his chest bare to the light in a few sleepy words: he couldn't see it himself, and yet-- that's it, love and joy so wound up in the fear of loss that they drag it with them like a ghost at the wedding. He shivers again, considering the whole tangled mess, and then kisses Jedao's hair.
"I promise."
The fear has its hooks in him as deep as the love and the joy, and it's not so easy to let it go, but they're in each other's arms now, and he can tell himself as he closes his eye that it's all right. They've promised. They will still have each other in the morning.
"Promise," Jedao echoes, lips curving into a small smile against Gonou's skin. "Goodnight, Gonou-shei."
It's easy for him to drift off, even moreso with Gonou's warmth pressed against and around him. He sleeps deeply and wakes suddenly and early, some unconscious habit from his predecessor, but doesn't mind lingering in the bed when he does.
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"I love you," he whispers. Jedao's laid the complicated weight in his chest bare to the light in a few sleepy words: he couldn't see it himself, and yet-- that's it, love and joy so wound up in the fear of loss that they drag it with them like a ghost at the wedding. He shivers again, considering the whole tangled mess, and then kisses Jedao's hair.
"I promise."
The fear has its hooks in him as deep as the love and the joy, and it's not so easy to let it go, but they're in each other's arms now, and he can tell himself as he closes his eye that it's all right. They've promised. They will still have each other in the morning.
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It's easy for him to drift off, even moreso with Gonou's warmth pressed against and around him. He sleeps deeply and wakes suddenly and early, some unconscious habit from his predecessor, but doesn't mind lingering in the bed when he does.