"Talk to me about what you were feeling?" Clearly she has a lot of thoughts she's working through. "You don't have to say it all...correctly. But I think it will be good, finding ways to say it."
She huffs, feeling overwhelmed with the thought of it. Words are easy for her, but this seems insurmountable. Instead, she borrows words, like the poet she is.
"'Indeed indeed, I cannot tell, Though I ponder on it well, Which were easier to state, All my love or all my hate.'"
She sighs. "It is both. I could not have one without the other. I could not hate without love or love without hate. They are so close, the two feelings. The intensity of them feels the same to me."
"Understandable," Jedao says dryly; he's known a few like that.
"But I do think it's still...different. You don't just want Sokie to make you happy. You want Sokie to be happy, even if sometimes you also want her to stop doing the frustrating things. And that's a very different kind of love than you had with your suitors, or they with you, I think."
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"'Indeed indeed, I cannot tell,
Though I ponder on it well,
Which were easier to state,
All my love or all my hate.'"
She sighs. "It is both. I could not have one without the other. I could not hate without love or love without hate. They are so close, the two feelings. The intensity of them feels the same to me."
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"I...yes, I can."
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"You don't want to hurt John, or Max, or Fitz, or Sokie, you said."
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"Well...sometimes I do want to hurt Sokie. When she is so deeply, deeply frustrating."
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"But I do think it's still...different. You don't just want Sokie to make you happy. You want Sokie to be happy, even if sometimes you also want her to stop doing the frustrating things. And that's a very different kind of love than you had with your suitors, or they with you, I think."
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"I want them all to be happy."