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No multitasking today? Got it.
I finished the book. And one Archer gave me. It wasn’t on the same subject. It was about the same length, though.
I finished the book. And one Archer gave me. It wasn’t on the same subject. It was about the same length, though.
Are you death tolling? Did that Corvo guy kill you too?
❌
🫥🫥🫥 => 🤯😵💫🫠😶🌫️
[Jedao had forgotten the communicators had these. They're weirdly easier.]
🫥🫥🫥 => 🤯😵💫🫠😶🌫️
[Jedao had forgotten the communicators had these. They're weirdly easier.]
Oh. Because of the surgery you had to arrange for Eiffel?
[He just answers like Jedao typed words. Also he didn’t see what a shitshow happened in Jedao’s post. He read the part with the plan and it seemed in good hands, so he left it alone.]
[He just answers like Jedao typed words. Also he didn’t see what a shitshow happened in Jedao’s post. He read the part with the plan and it seemed in good hands, so he left it alone.]
It occurs to me when some terribly unpleasant task lands in your lap, you seem incapable of passing it off to someone else, even if doing it destroys you in the process. I wouldn't say your choices were bad, they certainly made logical sense with the information you had, but it really didn't have to be you who did it.
And you've not only wrecked yourself, you wrecked Neal, too, when, instead of doing something sensible like talking him down or disarming him, you stabbed yourself in the neck in self-hated over doing things you could have given to another person and didn't. Neal shouldn't have gone after you. You were just trying to save Eiffel as best you knew how. But since your self-hatred needlessly hurt him, too, I'm not feeling very sympathetic to it right now.
And you've not only wrecked yourself, you wrecked Neal, too, when, instead of doing something sensible like talking him down or disarming him, you stabbed yourself in the neck in self-hated over doing things you could have given to another person and didn't. Neal shouldn't have gone after you. You were just trying to save Eiffel as best you knew how. But since your self-hatred needlessly hurt him, too, I'm not feeling very sympathetic to it right now.
so now we come to it
[Really, he should have guessed. He feels stupid, and hurt, and then stupid again. Norton wasn't pushing him because he wanted to talk as a friend. When Jedao tried to tell him it was too vulnerable, too raw, he didn't ignore Jedao out of misguided stubbornness. He ignored Jedao because he's here to punish him.
Fair enough.
Leave me alone or I'll send Neal my tongue in a box next, he thinks, viciously, part cornered animal, part ruthless agent. But none of this is Neal's fault, and Jedao doesn't like to bluff if he doesn't have to. Especially with a fellow fox likely to poke at it.]
we could save time if you'd just tell me the truth you know
[Really, he should have guessed. He feels stupid, and hurt, and then stupid again. Norton wasn't pushing him because he wanted to talk as a friend. When Jedao tried to tell him it was too vulnerable, too raw, he didn't ignore Jedao out of misguided stubbornness. He ignored Jedao because he's here to punish him.
Fair enough.
Leave me alone or I'll send Neal my tongue in a box next, he thinks, viciously, part cornered animal, part ruthless agent. But none of this is Neal's fault, and Jedao doesn't like to bluff if he doesn't have to. Especially with a fellow fox likely to poke at it.]
we could save time if you'd just tell me the truth you know
[Most of the shitshow wasn't public anyway - and what was of it was mostly on Hilbert's post, rather than Jedao's. And really, all of that is tertiary to the actual reasons he's a heap right now.]
sort of
because of the thing i had to arrange the surgery to fix
sort of
because of the thing i had to arrange the surgery to fix
[Norton believes one should never have an agenda when you could have two or three instead. There is an element of punishment. He's too petty, too vindictive for that not to be a little bit of his motive. But he also means it as a concerned observation: 'do something about your propensity for self-loathing because you're hurting yourself and people who come near you.'
He doesn't admit to either, however.]
Lord no, that wouldn't be like me at all.
He doesn't admit to either, however.]
Lord no, that wouldn't be like me at all.
im too tired for games right now
[And Norton is one of a small handful of people on the ship who knows exactly how weighted a statement that is.]
is it that you'd like to hear my screams, or that i should stop wallowing
you do have to pick, because my balance is too shot to do both
[And Norton is one of a small handful of people on the ship who knows exactly how weighted a statement that is.]
is it that you'd like to hear my screams, or that i should stop wallowing
you do have to pick, because my balance is too shot to do both
Edited 2024-01-06 07:19 (UTC)
The mind control chip? It triggered your trauma from home?
I just wanted to... see how you were doing, given everything. When you have a moment, I should love to hear from you.
[Reid gets the rare privilege of Jedao's voice, without the insulating barrier of text. His voice is low, quiet, weary.]
I'm doing bad, Jonathan.
But I've been through worse. I just need to...ride it out.
I'm doing bad, Jonathan.
But I've been through worse. I just need to...ride it out.
All right.
Would you care for a visit as you do so?
Would you care for a visit as you do so?
Do you consider this your home? Or do you feel like you don't have one?
[It comes as a gentle shock that he thinks - maybe -]
I...I just want to hide. For a little while.
I...I just want to hide. For a little while.
Then I shall give you what peace I may.
You are welcome to find me when you are ready. Know that you are thought of warmly elsewhere til then.
You are welcome to find me when you are ready. Know that you are thought of warmly elsewhere til then.
[Can... we fold laundry now?]
He hates how small his voice feels.
He hates how small his voice feels.
Definitely.
He feels very - tender, protective in a new way.
You ask really good questions, Jedao says, as he slips down from the top of the dryer and opens it up. The clothes inside are still very slightly damp - humid, at least - but in the cooler dry air of the room it'll only be a few minutes before they are fully dry.
Jedao pulls out a big heap of clothes in a pile, armfuls overflowing, probably losing a sock, so that he can bury their face in the soft warm fabric for a few long seconds.
Even though people don't always have good answers. That's one of the things I love most about you."
He feels very - tender, protective in a new way.
You ask really good questions, Jedao says, as he slips down from the top of the dryer and opens it up. The clothes inside are still very slightly damp - humid, at least - but in the cooler dry air of the room it'll only be a few minutes before they are fully dry.
Jedao pulls out a big heap of clothes in a pile, armfuls overflowing, probably losing a sock, so that he can bury their face in the soft warm fabric for a few long seconds.
Even though people don't always have good answers. That's one of the things I love most about you."
Jedao makes the request, then sets it down. And a moment later, the Admiral approves it.
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