Well everyone involved is hurting now, including you, so unless that was one of your strategic priorities this was a bit of a FUBAR. One that might have been avoided if you'd been a little less self-loathing.
I imagine when you're less...like this...you'll realize how utterly ridiculous it is to say you'd rather risk hurting people than deal with your bloody issues.
[Is it hypocritical of Norton to say this? Probably, but that doesn't stop him.]
i would rather stab every person on this ship in the face myself than let eiffel wander around being happily mind-raped for however long it took the barge committee to gnaw its way through its own limb to an agreed-upon course of action, because it was "only his personality" and not a "real medical emergency"
[Which he would have thought Norton would understand. But even as bitter and vicious as he feels right now, he doesn't quite throw that in his face.]
you don't know me as well as you think you do. i deal with my bloody issues all the bloody time
i didn't stab myself because i was overcome with self-loathing. i stabbed myself because i was numb, focused on the extraction, and it seemed more efficient to just give neal what he was asking for
next time ill know better than to let him in the room in the first place
I never said you had to bring it to the full Barge committee, I said you didn't need to deal with it on your own. Which in the end is what happened anyway. And what worked.
And if you'd really murder a ship full of people to save one person, maybe you need to reassess your qualifications for being a warden.
[He absolutely does not let himself think about all the people he led to their deaths to get Gideon back when he was taken over.]
yes so obviously i'm not obsessively incapable of recruiting help
but if i HAD talked to other people beforehand im fairly sure we'd have all come to the logical conclusion that it made sense to at least try to disable it with the smallest possible disturbance before jumping to invasive surgery with far more moving parts and more potential points of failure
i did think about my options. and the risks, and the death toll
[He thought about them very quickly, but that's what he does, in a crisis. It's what Jedao One did, too, not that he's thinking about that.]
i wasnt reckless. i was just mistaken
and im sorry that hurt eiffel, and im sorry it hurt neal too.
[But you're wrong about me - no. A real apology doesn't end with 'but' anything.]
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I imagine when you're less...like this...you'll realize how utterly ridiculous it is to say you'd rather risk hurting people than deal with your bloody issues.
[Is it hypocritical of Norton to say this? Probably, but that doesn't stop him.]
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i would rather stab every person on this ship in the face myself than let eiffel wander around being happily mind-raped for however long it took the barge committee to gnaw its way through its own limb to an agreed-upon course of action, because it was "only his personality" and not a "real medical emergency"
[Which he would have thought Norton would understand. But even as bitter and vicious as he feels right now, he doesn't quite throw that in his face.]
you don't know me as well as you think you do. i deal with my bloody issues all the bloody time
i didn't stab myself because i was overcome with self-loathing. i stabbed myself because i was numb, focused on the extraction, and it seemed more efficient to just give neal what he was asking for
next time ill know better than to let him in the room in the first place
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And if you'd really murder a ship full of people to save one person, maybe you need to reassess your qualifications for being a warden.
[He absolutely does not let himself think about all the people he led to their deaths to get Gideon back when he was taken over.]
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but if i HAD talked to other people beforehand im fairly sure we'd have all come to the logical conclusion that it made sense to at least try to disable it with the smallest possible disturbance before jumping to invasive surgery with far more moving parts and more potential points of failure
i did think about my options. and the risks, and the death toll
[He thought about them very quickly, but that's what he does, in a crisis. It's what Jedao One did, too, not that he's thinking about that.]
i wasnt reckless. i was just mistaken
and im sorry that hurt eiffel, and im sorry it hurt neal too.
[But you're wrong about me - no. A real apology doesn't end with 'but' anything.]