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"I love you, too," Gonou murmurs, and brushes a kiss against his forehead. "You do know I'm copying most of my kindness from you?"
Well, and Xie Lian. But the portion he's learned from Jedao is the portion that's better at handling important people's feelings gently, when he sees them.
Well, and Xie Lian. But the portion he's learned from Jedao is the portion that's better at handling important people's feelings gently, when he sees them.
"Still going for that A, I see," Jedao teases, voice just a tiny bit watery.
"A-plus," Gonou corrects, affecting a haughty tone, and lets his hand slip down from Jedao's hair to his back to enable a proper, tight embrace. "I'm an overachiever."
Jedao giggles a little at the tone.
"You came to see me. I feel like I didn't even do anything," he points out.
"You came to see me. I feel like I didn't even do anything," he points out.
Gonou shakes his head, pressing his face into Jedao's hair.
"No-- you did," he murmurs, taking a deep breath. "I just needed someone to understand why it bothered me."
Without having to put it into words. He still isn't sure what he'd say if he did have to put it into words; he knows he's going to have to talk to Jon again, but he's glad it's not just yet.
"Also I wanted to hold you," he adds, wryly self-conscious.
"No-- you did," he murmurs, taking a deep breath. "I just needed someone to understand why it bothered me."
Without having to put it into words. He still isn't sure what he'd say if he did have to put it into words; he knows he's going to have to talk to Jon again, but he's glad it's not just yet.
"Also I wanted to hold you," he adds, wryly self-conscious.
"I spent a long time half dreading finding out that I was a copy, half really hoping I was a human copy," he says quietly, twisting his fingers a little in Gonou's shirt.
Well, days. A few weeks at most. But it felt long at the time. And always his mothsense in the back of his head, hard to disregard.
"It's not the same, but. I get it." Even if he isn't sure how to say what it is either.
Well, days. A few weeks at most. But it felt long at the time. And always his mothsense in the back of his head, hard to disregard.
"It's not the same, but. I get it." Even if he isn't sure how to say what it is either.
"Yes," Gonou murmurs. "It's -- even if it's not the same, finding you're not what you expect to be isn't easy."
He drops a kiss on Jedao's forehead.
"I still don't think it's right to use that as a punishment," he mutters. Maybe it'll work for Daniel, who knows -- but it's not right.
He drops a kiss on Jedao's forehead.
"I still don't think it's right to use that as a punishment," he mutters. Maybe it'll work for Daniel, who knows -- but it's not right.
[He answers with voice, and he sounds - not great.]
I...encountered him. Be careful.
I...encountered him. Be careful.
[He replies in voice, and doesn't sound much better. Hoarse and tired, with quiet, strained notes of pain.]
Yeah. So did I. 's'how I know.
Yeah. So did I. 's'how I know.
Be careful when he gets back up, then. Are you okay?
Yeah, sure. I'm tougher than I look. And it's not like I'm gonna scar, so.
I'm gonna make a game where you only get points for complaining.
Does that mean he killed you, or
Does that mean he killed you, or
Hah.
But- nah, he didn't. Gave it the good old college try, though. Got some fun new gut stitches.
But- nah, he didn't. Gave it the good old college try, though. Got some fun new gut stitches.
I'm in my cabin.
I've promised Xie Lian I'll get some sleep, but.
See you soon?
[And a few minutes later, before he can stare at it for long enough to think better of sending it:]
I'm sorry.
I've promised Xie Lian I'll get some sleep, but.
See you soon?
[And a few minutes later, before he can stare at it for long enough to think better of sending it:]
I'm sorry.
I love you. I'll be there soon.
Oh, yeah, it's totally your fault that your boyfriend got displaced in time and space and went on a murderous Shining rampage 'cos the ghosts at the bar showed him some pretty lights.
[Jedao come on.]
Besides, what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. Now if I ever need to guilt trip Gonou into doing something I can bring up the time he tried to disembowel me.
[Jedao come on.]
Besides, what doesn't kill me makes me stronger. Now if I ever need to guilt trip Gonou into doing something I can bring up the time he tried to disembowel me.
I had a chance to stop him, and I was stupid about it. I tried to talk him down even though it was obviously the wrong play. If I'd just put him down neither of you would have to deal with his.
[Jedao's voice drops from weary and mild into a deep, low growl.]
And you'd better be kidding.
[Jedao's voice drops from weary and mild into a deep, low growl.]
And you'd better be kidding.
[Jesus Christ, Jedao.]
Of course I'm kidding, man! He's already this upset about just hurting me, I'm not gonna rub his goddamn nose in it!
[And Eiffel actually sounds a bit hurt by the accusation. He's not malicious.]
Of course I'm kidding, man! He's already this upset about just hurting me, I'm not gonna rub his goddamn nose in it!
[And Eiffel actually sounds a bit hurt by the accusation. He's not malicious.]
[Quiet, but precise.]
Don't of course me. We both know you can be careless with your words.
Don't of course me. We both know you can be careless with your words.
There's a freaking difference between me running my mouth like an idiot and me going out of my way to ruin someone's day! I--
[And then there's a sharp groan of pain from him - breathing in too hard and fast just yanked on his stitches, and he coughs weakly.]
God damnit...
[And then there's a sharp groan of pain from him - breathing in too hard and fast just yanked on his stitches, and he coughs weakly.]
God damnit...
He slips in a while later, and heads straight for the bed, only wanting to lie down and hold Gonou as tightly as his death toll can stand.
[Jedao's voice is quiet, calm, a little raspy. Thoughtful, rather than accusatory.]
The difference is whether you think about it first. You know he's distraught about it now, because it's all in front of you. But in another three months, when he's tucked it all away and been cool as a cat for a while...?
But now I've made you think about it, so you definitely won't.
Maybe that's an overreaction. I'm sorry if it is. You should definitely breathe, and punish me about it instead of yourself.
The difference is whether you think about it first. You know he's distraught about it now, because it's all in front of you. But in another three months, when he's tucked it all away and been cool as a cat for a while...?
But now I've made you think about it, so you definitely won't.
Maybe that's an overreaction. I'm sorry if it is. You should definitely breathe, and punish me about it instead of yourself.
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